I may have only slept for 4 hours last night, but I’ve already accomplished a lot this morning.
I finished my laundry around 7am. Took my poochie out. I was hungry, and I wanted to have a nice breakfast. My mom woke up because of me and the dog, and she took me to Bottom Dollar so I could get some bacon, eggs, cheese, and red peppers.
We stopped at Dunkin, where I got a latte. I don’t even care that I’m not supposed to have caffeine/coffee. I fucking needed it this morning. I needed it keep the tiredness at bay. It was really really good. It’s strange that I’m so tired, and yet I can’t sleep. My dad made breakfast. I had 1/4 of a waffle, a slice of bacon, and a few bites of my omelette.
My brother was yelled at because he told me “Go kill youself” during our breakfast conversation. To which I replied with a shocked face “What??” My dad yelled at him outright. My brother’s sense of humor is awful.I told him, “I hope you don’t say that to your friends Phillip, because you never know what’s going through someone’s head. Never tell anyone to go kill themselves.” So that put a damper on the mood, but it quickly turned around when I changed the topic. IDK, it was just nice being awake with the sun pouring into the kitchen, and sitting with my family. My eyes are watering a little bit because I know I have to go back to school in about 6-7 hours. I don’t want to go. I’m terrified of becoming sad again.
My mom and I are heading out to the grocery store because she needs stuff for home, and I have a few things I need for school. I’m excited to break in my new boots, and wear my new jeans because this morning my damn pants almost fell down around my ankles in the store. I hate belts that go around my hips. I don’t even own any that fit around my hips, just my waist.
It’ll be nice going out with my mom despite the cold windy weather. Good news is, I’m one pound away from a 40lb loss!
Scott is best known for directing ‘Top Gun,’ ‘Days of Thunder,’ ‘Beverly Hills Cop II’ and the recent ‘Taking of Pelham 123.’ He is the brother of director Ridley Scott.
Wow. Shocking, tragic, mysterious.
Thanks for all you’ve done, Tony. We’ll miss you.